Thursday, August 02, 2007
MY WORST REGRET
Today i write the saddest lines...
I dunno where to begin...
My grandfather had just passed away earlier this morning...
I received a call at 4 am in the morning and rushed down to my aunt's place...
It was too late...He was already gone... Gone, at the eve of my 18th birthday....
Someone whom i lived with for 16 years, someone who took care of me since birth had moved on...
I don't really know how to react...
I am sad, real sad...
Not because i don't get to celebrate my 18th brthday, spend time with my friends and her out having fun...
Not because i wont get to see my friends at least till next week...
Not because I have to spend my birthday in a funeral palour...
Not because of any of my personal interest....
But because i failed to fullfill his last wish...A final goodbye...
It was something simple and yet i couldn't do so...
He had wanted to see me all this while but i , apparently was too pre occupied with my own life....
I received a message from my aunt yesterday evening saying that my grandad wanted to see me and i said i'll be there on friday before hof but i guess that was too late for him...
None of us had expected him to leave so suddenly...
We all knew he was very sick but we never expected this to happen, at least not so sudden...
I guess that when tragedy strikes, it catches everyone off guard...
I was pretty strong just now in front of the rest, i didn't shed a tear...
But now that i'am home alone, i just couldn't help myself...
Now i really hate myself...
Now, just hot from the oven, 3 more shit to worsen my day...
1) Module Selection Rejected (2) Disciplinary Interwiew with the Dm (3) Rejection of promo video..
This has got to be the worst birthday/regret in my entire 18 years of life.... =(
And i am the biggest loser!!!!
Welcome to the suck! This is life!
I wrote to you
9:54 AM
